well its been awhile since ive been on dA. ive realised a lot of things lately, its helping me stand up again. i really am trying to forget certain things yet not wanting to. im still very confused but i'll get by somehow. alli need are my building blocks. my family adn my friends. they're my building blocks. ive always known that, but i just havent been able to work properly for the past 18 months. oh well, ive got another outlook now. things can only get better.